"Hey Cancer! Quite while you can. You're never going to beat her. She's too strong for you!"

What hurts the most is seeing someone you love... in pain. Seeing someone hurting more than you could ever imagine... and not being able to do anything. It kills you. It eats you up inside. You want to do nothing but save them from that pain. You want to be able to walk in, click your heels, and make it all better. But you can't. You can't do anything.

My grandmother, who I love soo much. When I say a strong woman, that doens't even begin to cover it. She had a heart attack... and didn't even know it! She was the woman who spoke her mind constantly. (Maybe thats where I get my "Fuck-You-If-You-Don't-Like-It" philosophy from)She is an amazing woman, with more will than anyone. Earlier this year she weas diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer. It killed me inside. I love her so freaking much. I can't even begin to explain it! The pain I felt inside was unberable. Today, I found out that she has another tumor below her liver. I cried. I couldn't bare to see that pain in her eyes. Today, January 2nd, is her birthday. When we talked, she said she was afraid that it will be her last. Hearing my grandma, the woman who has more will than anyone I know and can probably kick the shit out of anyone who messes with her, say that hurt. It made me afraid that it may be her last. I mean, who knows? Then I realised it. Cancer will not take her. She will be here for years to come. So here is what I say to cancer: FUCK YOU CANCER! You can, and will, not take my grandmother. She is too strong for you. She has will to live, you have will to kill. Love is louder than hate. Life is louder than death. Life will win.

This whole thing has made me think. Think a lot about things... life in general. I've realised how prescious every moment of my life is. How important it is to live every moment of your life to the fullest. Fuck anyone who tries to bring you down. Go out. Live your life. Make it count. Above all, look at everything you have. Look at the things you've accomplished and just smile. Above all...

MEASURE YOUR LIFE IN LOVE.

New Years Resolution Part 2!

"If you wait too long for the perfect moment, the perfect moment will pass you by."

Although I have already put some major thought into my resolution... I came across this secret in a "Post Secret" book at the library today, and it made me think. What have I spent the past year and a half of my life doing? Waiting...? Waiting for things to get better? Waiting for someone to come along and make my happiness? WHAT THE DUCK?!?! If you ask me... that is absolutely ridiculous. It makes me sick thinking about the past year and a half that I have wasted just waiting for something to happen and change this. Waiting is ridiculous. I am done waiting for times to change, and for things to get better... this year... I am going to make them better. I am done sitting around... It's time to shake things up!!


So there you have it, my New Year's Resolution for 2011 (pt. 2)... I am not going to wait for everything to be perfect... I am going to go out there and make my life perfect. I am going to change the world. Now, I know, you are all sitting there laughing at me and thinking I won't be able to do it... and to all you, I say fuck off. I can and I will change this world. It may be in a small way, but It will still be a better place, nonetheless! It's time for me to stand up and make a difference!


So, to end this happy New Year celebration... I leave you with this quote from Andy Warhol... "People say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself." Think about that. Let it resonate within yourself. Things do get better with time... but you have to make that change for the better. So I challenge you, whoever you are, to go and make the world around you a better place this new year. Rock out to the beat of your own drum... or tamborine, if that is how you roll... and change the world! It is like a beach filled with millions of starfish... even throwing one back in makes a difference, even if it is only to that one. So don't be afraid... even a small act of kindness can go a long way. And who knows... you just might start a chain reaction of kindness.

GOODBYE 2010 & GOOD RIDDANCE!

BRING ON 2011!!!